Monthly Archive for August, 2011

Finding Daheim

For my 15th birthday, my  mother’s sister (Tänte Ilse) gave me a collection of some favorite poetry handwritten into a yellow, leather bound journal. Some poems are in English, others in German (Tänte Ilse’s native language). This journal is one of my most treasured possessions because there is so much love in each carefully printed word. 

A German poem called, “Daheim” is one of my favorites. Daheim is a tricky word to translate, but essentially, it means “home” as in homeland, or the place that lives in your heart as home. 

Carefully taped on the page opposite this poem is a folded slip of paper with a pressed flower and one simple phrase, “Daheim bin ich gewesen.” (I’ve been at home.) Tänte Ilse… Continue reading

Bearing Witness

Twenty-four years ago I became a mother for the first time. As I held my son, I felt tremendous waves of love, joy and fierce new feelings of protectiveness.

My inner Momma Bear was awake. Looking at the world through her keen senses, danger appeared to lurk everywhere. It was up to me to keep this little one safe.

As I dressed Frank in his way-too-big “going home” outfit, I remember feeling the full weight of responsibility settle on my shoulders. I couldn’t believe the hospital was just going to let me take this baby home. How would I know if he was eating enough? How would I know if he was sick? What if I made a mistake? What… Continue reading